Tuesday, August 18, 2015

25 Weeks

Dear baby,

We are moving right along.  You are quite literally moving along, all the time!  I might actually prod you at times to get you dancing some more.  I hope you don't mind, it's just one of my favorite feelings in the world.  You get so many kisses and squeezes and 'I-love-you's from your sisters, and I am so happy that you can now hear their precious voices. 

This week we scheduled the rest of our midwife appointments and there were fewer then I assumed there would be, 3 1/2 months is just not that long.  That thought makes me smile.

Isaiah 26:3 has always been one of my favorite Bible verses.  "You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you."  I have focused on that verse during struggles, during new transitions, and during the labor of both your sisters.  But over the last year the Lord has been slowly and gently reminding me that's not a promise just for tough times, he wants me to daily walk in that peace.  He wants me to live there.  Sweet baby, it's transforming.  To truly understand that the one living God, the Creator, the one creating you now, rests in me and He just wants me to rest in Him.  Honestly it's becoming impossible to look ahead or make decisions with any worry or anxiety when I constantly hear Him whispering to me, "I've got you."

So this waiting has been filled with so much peace.  Something I am truly thankful for.  It leaves me just looking forward to the change of seasons, to all the holidays, to your birth.  It's peace that makes me smile at the thought of becoming a mother to three young children.  Peace that just doesn't leave room for fear of not being enough.  So yes, I choose to believe that promise.